The Need for Change???

I don't know what it is, but generally every two years I find myself in an position where I go through a period of major change. Two years ago I changed churches and also teaching jobs where I even changed the subject that I taught. Two years before that, I started teaching. Heck, I even changed my major in college every other year. Is it that I don't know what I want???? Back then, I think that was the situation; now I feel like I am going somewhere.

Today I interviewed for a different position in my school district. To be honest, it's a position that, if you just look at my resume, I'm not qualified to teach. I don't have an advanced degree, I don't even have a math degree, and I've only taught for 4 years (with only two in math). On paper I am not qualified to be a math curriculum specialist. But somehow, this is the path that I've felt myself going for the past year and a half. I didn't think that this would happen so soon, but back in January I learned that Todd, the former math curriculum specialist who has really taught me tons about teaching math, was being promoted to another position and that someone else would need to fill his role. I was certain that it would be someone else. But, it got me thinking about where my future was going, and that day I decided that it was time that I get started on my master's. Well, four months later, a friend and colleague insisted that I at least apply for the position; two weeks later, I did. I wasn't sure at all what I would say in my letter of interest, but when I finally had enough courage to begin writing it, the words just came so naturally.

Today I had my interview, and I was so nervous. Honestly, I am okay with whatever happens, but I was still nervous. Six people sat in on my interview...oy! One of the six people was my "boss" who I know was just sad to see me in there; she doesn't want to lose me. It was a tough interview, but I was myself and even admitted that I didn't know the answer to some of the questions. (I was very, very thankful for the conference that I went to this weekend, though. It helped me a lot.) Lisa, my asst. principal at my school, walked me outside after it was over and told me how great I did. She was so encouraging, as she always is. No one person has helped me grow into the professional that I am like she has; everything I have learned about teaching and leadership I've learned from her. Part of me does not want the job because I like working directly with her so much. I really don't know what I want right now. I still have so much room to grow as a teacher. If I don't get the job, then I understand, especially since one of the candidates almost has her doctorate.

I really want what God wants. I don't want to have more influence than what God wants me to right now. I know that if I get the position then I would need more help from him than ever just to get by. At some point, I really do need to stop changing jobs every two years. Seriously, how many different jobs would I have by the time I retired???